Do you remember about the new job and new man I was going “all in” on?
Well, I thought an update was long due.
I was trying to do my best with the cards I was dealt and decided to take the leap and go for both the job and the man, obviously not knowing what next card would complete my hand nor what other players’ was.
Here’s what happened.
I guess I should start with the nice surprise I got once I got to know that man a bit more. He turned out to be one of those beautiful persons you rarely meet and makes you think you’ve been really lucky to cross paths with. He is genuine, attentive, quircky and does not seem to have an agenda hidden underneath all of those qualities. He actually appears quite innocent at times. And boy, that’s refreshing!
As for the job… It might turn out the “all in ” will have taught me a lesson! I still need to learn, prove myself, find out which areas I can get more involved in and leave myself some time to process it all. However, I am starting to question if the job and the setting are right for me and will meet my professional needs. Ok, I guess now is the right time to say I work as a rehabilitation support worker. I am not questioning working in care but the role I am expected to take on with the training I received, as well as the system in place in that care setting. It seems my hand is confronted to other people’s better ones who decided to make up rules I don’t agree with.
So, what do you do when your hand does not turn out to be that good but you still want to win?
You bluff. Yes, you pretend you love the game, the rules and you have exactly the cards to win it. How else are you supposed to learn how to play and win the next round if you don’t even try to win the first one, right?
So, I’m bluffing. I am going to work, trying to do my best with the rules I am being given until I decide if the game is worth it or if another game suits me best.
I suppose my “all in” was not so bad as I don’t need to bluff with that man. At least, something worked out. And I’m getting experience in the field I want to work in as well as learning what is good for me and what is not.
Once again, I am not the pleasure-seeking-teenager anymore, I am an adult taking risks and learning from the consequences.
Or … am I bluffing on that too?!